After the Storm

It's the start of a new stage in my life.
Starting school at a full fledged university tomorrow. Couple that up with a new job, new responsibilities, and a new schedule and it seems like theres a lot of daunting change thats coming at every angle. I have only about two years of credits to take in school to complete my bachelors plus I have a new job I'm still getting familiar with at KSL. If I looked back at where I was a year or so ago it would definitely be a eye opening experience. A lot has changed and so have I, yet I can tell I still have a long ways to go.

I had a home teaching companion who told me something once that has resonated with me for so long. He said that "were all governed by our fears." The more I think about it the more I think it's true. How we act, what we say, our insecurities are all governed by what we fear. They keep us from doing things like telling a cute girl you like how you feel, trying something new, fulfilling your lifelong dreams. I think it might be impossible to overcome all of my lifelong fears but i do hope to be able to say I did my best to fulfill my own personal dreams and desires. As I do so I feel like I'm paving my own road doing things nobody in my family has done before. Looking back at what I've done before and after my mission I can say I've done more than I could possibly think was possible. I have a great job, a really close family, a stronger testimony of gods love, and I've achieved some of my own bucket list goals. I feel like i should almost anticipating trials, self doubt/fear will overtake me along the way. I hopefully will be ready to face these storms with a great attitude and maintain my dedication to myself and God.


"And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair."-Mumford and Sons